I Feel Like This

School started last on Monday, my first day going to grad school, my first day of being all grown up, the first day that I hadn't seen Jordon in a month. Also the first day I noticed that I'm not really all that smart.

Everyone in my class, I mean everyone is brilliant. Maybe I am not quite so lovely and talented as I thought? Impossible. And I feel far away from Jordan, I was there for him all summer and for the first time, already I am afraid that I wont be able to support him, that I wont be enough, that he will find someone that is available all the time, and I will left in the dust.

Silly I know, but these are the things I think of when I am in class on a late summer day. I wonder who I am, where I am going, and wonder too if it is all so pointless, and if I am just a selfish silly girl, and not the person that I pretend to be. I have always mocked those people that look back fondly at the misery that was high school, but now for the first time I am scared and wish things were just a bit simpler.

On another note thanks for all the comments on my first post. Now everyone please tell me that I really am very smart and that Jordan will love me forever.

Thank you!!!

New beginnings and old ways

First post!

This has been an incredible year for me. I am just out of college, I am in love with a boy named Jordan who makes me smile every day, and I am starting grad school in the fall. I hope to get to know some people on here, share stories of fun things going on and have a place to work out the rough spots.

Jordan is starting a blog as well and you will see us both around I am sure! This will be a good way for us both to get all our stuff out, as my parents don't really know him yet, and he hasn't really met my friends and this is a place that we can grow together and as individuals.

If you see me at your blog please come back and say hey! I really want to get to know people on here, you know how so many times you can say things to people that you don't even know that you can't tell your best friends? I don't know if it is pathetic, but that's what I am looking for here. A safe place to let things out, and if I can be there for you in return all the better.

Okay I'm peacing for now!! Later